But in a greater sense, what I'm really talking about, is not getting upset anymore. Nothing need bother me, it's truly my outlook. Should anything be out of my control, why bother to worry about it. I've repeated that, over and over, like a mantra. But it was tonight (( check time posted on this bitch...I've been up all night with two very close friends..no T.v. No music..just the sounds of our voices..and I don't get to chill with these two boys much..always a great learning experience for the soul with these boys..)) I truly realized what the verse repeated so often meant. I cannot even tell you the weight I feel lifted off my shoulders, the pressure from my chest, the worries surrounding life’s endless possibilities.
Maybe this sounds completely retarded to whomever chooses to read such random ramblings of my crazed and paranoid mind, but I understand what I'm saying, and to me, that's what counts.
I should get some sleep..but I feel more alive right now than I've felt in too many years..and I can't waste this feeling should it fade..However I will do my best((which in this case should involve little effort..doesn't take much effort to not get frustrated or upset..takes a good amount of effort to calm yourself once that point is reached however..I believe this entire revelation I had tonight was completeley work related..That was determined at 5:30..after all other "venting had been achieved" the last and final thing..the topic of main disgust..my job..and that..that I will write another blog about some other time..soon))
Yeah..I'll end it there..for now..Love Ya'll
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